I cant stay awake, and the doctors think its normal.


Hey there! so i had another post planned for today but things have happened that has made me want to talk about something that ive kept on the quiet side for a while now, but i want to speak about it so that anyone else in my situation knows they are not alone.

So almost a year ago now i started randomly falling asleep at my desk, it didnt seem like a big deal at first, just that every now and then i would wake up at my desk. I thought it wasnt a big problem and i was just being a bit silly not sleeping enough, but it continued to happen becoming more and more common, even if i had hours and hours of sleep the night before. 6 months down the line, it was becoming almost a daily occurrence that i would at some point wake up at my desk.

And this was the thing, i never had a warning, never felt sleepy or like i was going to fall asleep, just one minute i was awake and the next i was waking up. I got really bad pretty fast, and i was soon passing out regularly for anywhere between 5 minutes to 2 hours, i would go out at any point, even when speaking or playing a video game, sat on the edge of my bed and waking up falling off onto the floor was also not the most fun id ever had.

So when i saw my doctor next, i mentioned it too her i explained how i had a friend with narcolepsy and a lot of my issues lined up with hers, but i did understand that it could be sleep apnoea too though i didnt really seem to fit the daytime sleepiness of that. But of course, due to my weight my doctor said sleep apnoea straight off the bat, especially when i said i snore and said she would “look into” going to a sleep clinic and let me know before i next saw her, of course she didnt.

3 months down the line, and i am really struggling, ive not been able to do things due to passing out, ive passed out on hair brushes and the marks that i get on my arms begin to be amusing, i have to find a sliver lining somewhere right? i fall off my bed again, and now i even pass out while i sit down waiting for things to cook, resulting in a number of burnt meals. I dream really vividly when i pass out, confusing my already confused brain when i wake up. I turn to caffeine to try and stay awake and it helps a little, but not has much as i need.

Back to the doctors i go, and she hasnt looked into sleep clinics of course but she has a questionnaire that should show if im within normal levels of “sleepiness” (i explained a number of times that i never felt sleepy). I do the questionnaire but so many of the questions either dont apply to me (for example, would you fall asleep at work when i dont work) or they are ones like would you fall asleep in a moving car, when for me personally cars have sent me to sleep since i was a baby. After this questionaire she says i am within normal levels, and any problems i am having will fix themselves once i loose weight, she does do my oxygen levels (which would be effected if i had sleep apnoea) and they are completely normal, so she sends me on my way.

This was 2 days ago, and i was stunned, are you freaking kidding me? so passing out for hours at a time with no idea its happening and falling over is normal? im never normal, and this is certainly no exception. I came out of the doctors really annoyed and upset.

Now in a bid to try and get back on track i wanted to try and get out of the village for the first time since may on friday. So i go to bed early, i get up and i start getting ready and im sat at my dressing table doing my makeup when the next thing i know its over an hour later and im coming around and god i just wanted to scream. being out for that long meant i had ran out of time, because i can only leave the house with my mum and she works a split shift by the time i had finished getting ready i wouldn’t of made it out leaving enough time for her to rest and get to work on time. I am so fucking upset and frustrated that its effecting me to this point yet the doctor deemed it “normal”.

I dont know why i haven’t spoken about too much until now, but i think it about time so that anyone else suffering like this knows they are not alone in this extremely frustrating situation. I plan to go see another doctor, and hope that i am listened too this time, fingers crossed!

Cath x

Author: Cath

Hello there! Im cath, and this is my little space on the internet, enjoy!

4 thoughts on “I cant stay awake, and the doctors think its normal.”

  1. Wow. This isn’t the first time I’ve met and heard doctors telling patients to just ‘lose wright’ so cavalierly over problems that probably have nothing to do with their weight even. Broken bones? “Lose weight, you loser! Oh, they broke when you were playing sports? Well, if you were thinner, that would never have happened! Everyone knows that thin people don’t suffer from broken bones. That’s a fat people problem and it’s because you’re fat!” Flu? Lose weight! Anything and everything… Lose weight. It’s just plain lazy. I hope you find a doctor who actually cares to find out what’s actually going on with you. All the best.

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  2. first thing I come up with, is go seek another Dr for a second “diagnosis”, this isn’t right ! shame they aren’t even trying. mom got a kidney transplant, and YET doctors would tell her to lose weight every time she goes in for tests. euhm, hallo ?? she had three. kidneys. in there, surely it should weight a little – which was also because of the pills they gave her..

    That being said, I had a pass like this ! not that extreme; but I would watch something starting and just mysteriously wake up at the end of it.

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